Plum Smut; a Rough Concept

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This is JUST a magazine mockup. Look, sometimes I need to see some shit to believe some shit. 

in the most BUCK WILD of my imaginations, I want to create an independent gay erotic magazine. Growing up I was OBSESSED with porn in this weird ass way. I didn’t need to beat off to pages of airbrushed titties, but I liked the idea that a whole world of fantasy was happening in this secretive way that people universally enjoyed and nobody talked about.

The men I knew liked porn. My father collected it despite my evangelical mother, my friends dad “secretly” stashed copies of Playboy in the bathroom behind the toiletries. An older relative, a sort of Casanova, seemed to have a thing for gang bang stuff. It was filthy and fascinating to me. Something about it all gave them relief outside of their own worlds.

When I was perhaps too young, I came across my uncle’s collection of Japanese porn. Hentai. It was amazing. Not just in the sense that cartoony characters were doing dirty shit, but I was trying to wrap my early teenage mind around why THIS specific kind of erotic content helped him feel understood.

Look. I was a complex ass child. I’m a complex ass adult. Even now, ‘sex’ involves me pre-screening and asking my partners a million questions and trying to make the connections about who they are and the erotic shit they keep quiet about, and most importantly, why.

From an early age I had this idea that our ‘fantasies’ and ‘erotic interests’ are cool ass other-worlds of our own making. Our erotic interests can be places where we shake off the dust from our obligations, and duties. We get to leave behind imposed rules of what is ‘appropriate’.

Yes, pornography can be dangerous. Yes, it can fuck up our expectations about sex and connection. Yes, pornography can become addicting and more short-term gratifying than actual sex. Every good thing should happen in moderation and many bad things happen in excess.

But I also think those places of erotic exploration are important. I think people should explore fantasy in a way that empowers them instead of creating weird societal shame. I’d like to use my own variation of creativity to explore that for myself, and also help folks make those erotic connections in themselves.

Shit, maybe it’s my erotic fantasy to get people to understand their own erotic fantasies.

 

 

4 thoughts on “Plum Smut; a Rough Concept

  1. I love porn as well. I am actually addicted to Raceplay porn. because of it, I dream about an alpha white male destroying my hole and breeding me in front of his friends… they take turns turning me into a slut… I could go on and on about my slut fantasies.

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    • This. All of this. Fascinating. Our fantasies reflect things that could be labeled as ‘inappropriate’ or just plain ‘traumatizing’ but give us a safe place to explore those things. It’s important.

      I absolutely appreciate you sharing, friend. I love your transparency.

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      • Thank you.. and you’re right, if given a safe place (other than tumblr) to explore and share this fantastic pleasures we’d all understand that it’s absolutely normal. I love everything taboo and inappropriate

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  2. I’m glad to see you cross this bridge. I’ve always believed that porn – in a way – provided some relief for sexual tension in a way that allowed us to escape conflicting restraints. I also felt that it offered a release from what many were taught as “good boys” versus “bad boys.” I still feel that porn, in moderation, has saved society from a few serious would-be sexual predators by providing an outlet from sexual repression. Thanks you for addressing this issue and for opening this topic for discussion. One of the very many reasons I appreciate both you and your blog! Naked hugs, my friend!

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